It was early in the morning The day clearly was still dawning I was fairly busy yawning at the view She rolled over on my chest She moved closer then she pressed her lips lower, on my neck and then she flew I was so glad we were a team I thought this had to be a dream Wanted to go back to sleep and rest my head But before I could close my eyes She came back and froze the skies For a moment life was still and then she said She said I’m so black she said I’m so beautiful But I’m just wondering which she noticed first Told her I am trapped she thought I was delusional But why are preconceptions of me always the worst Loneliness is a knife that’s been in my back all my life And no matter how much I strive to pull it out It feels like it’s too deep when the night falls I cannot sleep I use pillows just for my tears and quiet shouts I know I’m not a saint but these colours we seem to paint have done nothing for me but taint my self-esteem It is a mental virus, am I conscious of my bias now I don’t only feel lifeless in my dreams She said I’m so black she said I’m so beautiful But I’m just wondering which she noticed first Told her I am trapped she thought I was delusional But why are preconceptions of me always the worst

You can get me sick or get me down, but just know that you won’t get me out of town My world is so different from yours In ways too hard to express with words Your keys are played more often, but mine created jazz More likely to end up in coffin or Alcatraz But when I’m with you Honey the skies turn blue And the tides that I ride in my mind subdue Yes it’s you my dear x3 May your choices reflect your hopes not fears My love for you roars like the sea But if I stay you'll end up drowning me In my mind I am old, but I’m young at heart The cold world says we’re 9 years apart When all is said and done Will you be here, will you be gone? If you leave now I don’t know if I’ll carry on All flames start off as an ember But life without you is something I can’t remember You make me see my past differently as if the times I spent strumming those strings and pretending to sing were worth something Yes it’s you my dear x3 May your choices reflect your hopes not fears My love for you roars like the sea But if I stay you'll end up drowning me We met on the bus 48 you said you liked my glasses Was thinking should I ask this? Didn’t really think I’d actually get you number Cuz you were with you friends, I was alone and outnumbered Plucked up the courage to ask it was no easy task I know how lies make you feel I’m sorry I conceded My age You rage was founded when you removed my mask You heard I was 18, and you were 27 But maybe we were still a match made in heaven It’s not always true that age determines Maturity, we spoke German You grew up in small town called Wasserburg Am Inn You said you wanted to be official, I said I’m in We knew nothing was certain Found ourselves still asserting All the claims that we claimed Weren’t any of our yearnings You said you don’t care about my status or my earnings So I’ll take you to Malibu cuz you’re my lil boo, we’ll be chillin on the beach sipping Malibu But you don’t drink or smoke or even have Facebook Knew I was scared of heights so you said you’d be my brace hook Said it wouldn’t kill me to say I love you more But it would honestly kill me if I loved you more You wanted to stop me from feeling so alone all the time And you wish that deep down I wasn’t so blue But these are the ways of mine, I’m just glad I could share this space and time with you

I’ve been chilling on my own I’ve been chilling all alone Cuz I don’t really know where’s home for a guy like me Where’s home for a guy like me Just a few words in this verse One day I’ll be laid down in a hearse So I may as well rehearse Everything I’m trying get off my chest at first Don’t really care about who thinks I’m the best or worst They say Jay you should really rest your poor head Told her no way babe I can always rest when I’m dead I know I work too much maybe it’s all in my head Cuz without my work ethic I’d already be dead I’ve been chilling on my own I’ve been chilling all alone Cuz I don’t really know where’s home for a guy like me Where’s home for a guy like me Isn’t culture just a cult you’re a part of? Works of art, ways to act, certain phrases I grew up in the city it was lonely But now I know that life is just a set of different phases And different faces, in different places Got this feeling deep inside but I can’t place this Feels like no matter where I roam, I’ll never find a home Existence is a curse and I just wanna be alone Oh well such is life it was nothing that I did I was born just to be another third culture kid For all the third culture kids I’ve been chilling on my own I’ve been chilling all alone Cuz I don’t really know where’s home for a guy like me Where’s home for a guy like me

She keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make her laugh Or if there’s no point at all she keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make my own path She may just wanna see me fall Vague vibes I don’t know if I should try To make her laugh Or if there’s no point at all she keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make my own path She may just wanna see me fall It’s New Year's Eve So if you hear me Say I want you to see me be near these strings I play Girl what do you say She said that sounds like a vibe Just you and me Forget the tribe A good time was the bribe Cuz the venue I described Was a good one Quite tanned but she knew I weren’t a hoodlum We set the date we set the time Can’t believe this girl I like is gonna come and see me rhyme On a stage that is so prime Yeah the feeling was sublime And it seemed to me that finally the stars had aligned She keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make her laugh Or if there’s no point at all she keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make my own path She may just wanna see me fall Vague vibes I don’t know if I should try To make her laugh Or if there’s no point at all she keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make my own path She may just wanna see me fall She’s running late Still I can’t wait Should’ve known not to have my expectations great But that’s me what can I say Now it’s underway Here’s your card, triple a But you already accessed all the areas of my various mind and precarious heart I was kind at the start Began falling apart Invited back to mine You gracefully declined But you still got off at my stop on the northen line If you’re going back to yours Stay on the train of course Unless you changed your mind in which case everything’s fine I had no bottles of wine We’d still relaxed and unwind Everything she said and did was so unexpected Stepped out of the situation and I inspected Realised her feelings were simply misdirected She just wanted me on the list of the guys she’d rejected Vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make her laugh Or if there’s no point at all she keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make my own path She may just wanna see me fall Vague vibes I don’t know if I should try To make her laugh Or if there’s no point at all she keeps sending me these vague vibes And I don’t know if I should try To make my own path She may just wanna see me fall